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This post will be more about cancer since my grades haven't arrived in the mail, I took my finals in the first week of May and CHC (Chestnut Hill College) is a very large school...so I figured they handle things differently. I would go online to check for a few classes, but some of my classes can't be checked online...because one of my teachers (who had for 3 classes) was a older woman who wasn't computer-savy. I know I paid and finished off my balance, so I hope it'll come soon.
My mother's health has gotten worse this week, she collasped in her room's shower (she's in the hospital) and collasped. She was on a respirator and feeding tube, and heavily sedated. On Saturday night into Sunday morning, her lungs were failing and she had gotten a blood infection...and she had a fever. The doctor called the family down to discuss the best route for my mother, if she should be let go = allowed to pass away. Apparently, since my mother is no longer married....I am her power of attorney, meaning I make the heaviest decisions...even deciding whether mother should be allowed to be on life support or let her gradually slip away and die. I told my family that I wanted the decision to be okay with all, since I didn't want my family to go through battles like Terry Schiavo.
I told them to let her get more aid, more medicine, more drugs...and the doctors did what I asked. Currently, she's still on the respirator and feeding tube...she's more awake now. She keeps trying to take the feeding tube out, but we trying to tell her that she needs it in to get fluid out of her lungs. Her lungs were filled with blood earlier...Bascially, if mother does get out of the hospital...we're going to take her to John's Hopkin's Hospital in Baltimore...regardless of the money and what she says. As far as I'm concnerned, she gave up control when she fucked up like that in the shower.
As much as I love her, I truly wonder what the hell she's thinking most of the time...I think she can tell by my face that I'm there for her...but I'm really upset with her stubborness at this stage of her cancer. She's at stage 3...there is no stage 4. My father, eldest aunt and her husband are going to take a few weeks or so...to decide what will happen to me regardless of what happens to my mother. I live with my grandparents (her parents) and I'm contemplating moving out if things go bad (if Mother does happen to die with complications or her own stupidity by doing something else she shouldn't have done). As much as I love grandma, there's a lack of communication on how to handle mother. If anything, I want mother to put things in writing.
